stress relief

i'm writing this right now because a) it's supposed to take my nerves off of things, and b) i have nothing else to do for the next hour. until my counseling appointment, that is. yes, it has been a fun first few days at YU, and already i seem to be falling apart at the seams. I really don't know why- i guess i'm just homesick. I've never been away from home- or my family- for five weeks straight, and even if i'm not thinking about that fact, it seems to take a subconscious toll on me. I've had no appetite for the last two days. I've barely eaten anything since yesterday morning. at least today there was somewhat of an improvement- now i'm hungry too. i have this overwhelming feeling of nausea which i assume comes from the anxiety i'm feeling about being away from home, being in college, not being completely sure what to do, or a few other reasons. no matter what i try, i can't get that nausea out of my system. i went and got tums and some other medication- they didn't do any good. it's just a mental thing i guess. i don't know how to get rid of that. so i'm going to see a therapist in about 45 minutes, though i can't imagine he'll improve things much, since i don't really know what needs to be improved in the first place.
also, it's pretty hot here. my dorm is above 90 degrees most of the time, which may contribute to things a little bit. there's one room with air conditioning on this floor, called the lounge, but things don't get any better while im in there. i can't go there now because it smells like pizza, and that smell now makes me want to throw up.
isn't that sad? i came here so excited for kosher pizza, and now somehow i can't even stand the smell of it. another possible factor is that i don't know anyone here. i've met a bunch of great guys, and some of them are really trying to help me, but for some reason nothing seems to work.
my only respite was going to perel's apartment last night. there, for a time, i felt better, my appetite returned shortly, and i had some vegetable soup. we hung out for about an hour or so, and then i took a shuttle back. but tonight i'm going to a lazer tag/ bowling/ arcade social extravaganza thing, where hopefully i'm warm up to people, make some friends somehow, and take my mind off of things.
I'm really not worried about my classes, save for the fact that apparently i have to buy textbooks for them, and not only do i not know where to go to get them, i won't know what to buy until the first day of classes. i even have to buy my own gemara, and the sforim sale isn't open till 6:30, and we leave for lazer tag at 7. ugh.
and the swimming that i was so pumped for? hasn't been open for all of orientation so far. i thought i might be able to relax in the wirlpool, but the guard said there's no schedule for the pool to be open during orientation. so no dice there either.
i'm really counting on this therapist to work something out with me, because if i'm not able to eat something soon, i don't know what's going to happen. tonight's roast turkey, and while i know that should sound good, my stomach feels queazy just thinking about it. and then of course the fact that i feel nauseous when i should be hungry adds to my anxiety, which makes me more nauseous, etc.
everyone says that this all just wears off after a while, and i really hope it does. i also hope i haven't starved to death by that point. i don't really know what to do until that happens. but i do realize one thing.

it's a darn good thing i didn't go to israel.